Smells like teen spirit: Constellation documentation PDP
Due to the way we are allocated our constellation groups I found myself within the ‘smells like teen spirit’ study group which, being truthful was not my preferred choice. I had very little prior experience of or interest in the subjects explored within the group and the subject matter was not something that instantly resonated with me. Unfortunately, I missed the first lecture and swap shop due to being away at the time and then for other unforeseen circumstances such as a university snow day and illness, over half of the sessions were missed leaving me with a large gap in knowledge about the subject when assessing what to write my summative essay on. This is why I have subsequently decided to revisit my previous essay and constellation ‘The philosophy of art and design’ and elaborate on that for my summative essay instead of constructing one for this study group.
Even though ‘smells like teen spirit’ was not my preferred choice, that doesn’t mean I did not enjoy or extract a lot of positive aspects from the group. Upon attending the remaining lectures, a particular highlight for me, was the diversity of the group of students participating and the range of ideas and ways of seeing that were brought to the debates and conversations. This diversity of both artistic approaches and ideas regarding the subject matters and debates, meant that I was able to view the concepts explored within the groups from completely different angles and I found this a very useful asset, both for informing my own practice within the studio and for strengthening my own knowledge of the explored subjects. This has also lead me to take a much more sincerer approach to the views of others even if I do not fully agree with their stance. The course leader Cath, was also an asset to the group as her enthusiasm for the subject matter, as well as her dedication to the students was more than apparent throughout and meant that even a subject that I would not usually find of particular interest and influence to my practice, became such due to being presented in a very engaging manner. Her clear and concise delivery within the lectures helped me to understand fairly complex matters and her organisation was very beneficial and helpful.
Another positive that I extracted from constellation this time round, has been the lasting connections I have made with some of the other students in the group. This has not only enabled me to expand my network of friends within the school of art, but has also introduced me to other makers whose approaches differ from my own. This may result in collaborations within future projects and result in those experiences enriching my own palette of expression as I am introduced to other ways of working and potentially mediums I have not yet encountered such as clay.
Over the course of the lectures I attended, I have to say that even though there were some positives I brought out of the experience, alluded to above, I did not find the subject matters that engaging and discovered that the study of subculture, or at least the ones that were touched upon the lectures, is not something I will pursue further. I found that the subjects were not very easily relatable to my own studio practice and were opposed to the way in which I conduct my own life, as well as my approach to creating the majority of my own works. Meditation, intuition, unconscious feeling and being non-judgemental of a person and their appearance play fundamental roles in the majority of my works and my life conduct in general and I feel this way of working didn’t quite relate to the subject matters within the groups. However, this is in no way an attempt to undermine the relevance and significance of this group for others, it is simply not of particular interest to me personally. With this said, there were aspects of the lectures that I found particularly helpful and informing, specifically the historical aspects. I was presented with an array of artists and movements that I had not a lot of prior knowledge of and this helped me to devise a more thorough understanding of sub cultures and their historical background as well as the cultural basis of some of the items of clothing I have worn in the past without any conscious acknowledgment as to what my clothing may be saying about the me and how different people may interpret that. My ability to make connections and links between theory and practice has also been improved though, or at least I am able to more accurately contextualise my stance regarding the interplay of the two subjects.
An area of strength that attending constellation has highlighted is my ability to construct a more thorough argument when articulating a point. It has also very much strengthened my networking skills, which will only positively impact both my practice and my life as a student within the University.
Areas I could do with strengthening would firstly be my academic writing. Although I have completed a small number of essays in the past and do regularly write in other contexts, I have been out of the education for quite a while and have struggled with the transition from writing for leisure to constructing a clear, concise and academically correct essay. This is only further hindered by the fact I have Dyslexia and although I do not allow it to dictate my academic life, it does slow the process quite dramatically and add additional complications. Another area I will improve for the next round of constellation is definitely my organisational skills. Again, the transition into academic life has been difficult as I lived a very simple existence prior to deciding to further my artistic studies and since I commenced the course, I have immersed myself within everything I possibly can including outside exhibitions, events and clubs etc. This has meant that I have really struggled to correctly balance my time and have prioritized the practical and networking aspects of my practice over the theoretical. This was a conscious decision and one of the aspects of my practice highlighted within the last round of constellation study groups that I have not yet been able to correctly address. However, I must continue to work on this aspect going forward in my academic studies, as to not risk my development on the course.
Going forward, I intend on attending the follow up meeting if available, which I feel will be essential in discovering how and where I can improve when approaching academic essays in the future. I will strive to attend additionally available workshops that will improve my academic writing as I have struggled more than I thought I would with constellation this year. Partially due to my lack of engagement with the subject matter but primarily due to my unbalanced approach to the course and my artistic practice this term. I will strive to maintain a much better and more balanced theory to practical approach and not allow my efforts to be stretched as thinly as I have this term.